Some bloggies at work...
Last day to enjoy such leisure before Dogbert returns tml.
Always praying she never will...=/
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http://www.grapheus.com/Plants/Plants-Michelia.htm

Michelia - Very interesting trees and shrubs of the Magnolia order; mostly from Asia and China. Little known in our gardens as yet, excepting one kind, which is grown in conservatories. They are only likely to succeed in the southern most favoured parts of the country
Cant find the meaning of Michelia,other than the fact it is really a plant. But I swore I saw it from a name book?That is if my memory didn’t fail me.
Well..better that than Rose.=/
Jason spelt this name as Michiela in his hp.I thought he spelt wrongly,but he said he prefered it this way as it sounds French.
Michiela…not bad too.
Yawns..my shoulders are aching.
Tonight’s sleep would be a less peaceful one as Dogbert returns tml afternoon.
Believe it anot,I am still praying secretly by some miracles I wont see her till I leave this company.
I shall now label myself as a embarrassing accidents prone mich,or just simply a klutz.
I had myself knelt in public TWICE!
So embarrassing that I would rather not blog about this yesterday till it really happened this morning again.
WTF!
Yesterday was a rainy one,and I kinda just skidded,and ta da…I knelt on one knee right outside Concourse.Quickly get out and pretend nothing happen and walked on.Bloody F!
And today..as im walking to the cake shop,there’s a small flight of stairs,right?I dunno what’s on my mind and I missed one step and..Voila!I really just knelt down,as if I am begging for mercy.
This is really %#^%^!Couldn’t care less and quickly adopted the same attitude as yesterday but really..I wondered how many pple are laughing over it.
I swear shall there be a next time,I would really just curse out aloud!
Next…
I wondered what’s the world doing right now?
Havent got Jason’s msg since last night 8 plus.And his msg is,"stop staring at the hunky me…!"
I knew that was a joke coz I am kinda obesessed with that photo yesterday.Couldn’t stop admiring it.But it’s ok now,I mean im ok now.
There is supposingly a dinner b/w me and Yng,but dunno what happened to it.
Hope she is fine..with that.Frankly speaking…I wish Simon is a good bf to her.
I wonder how is Von right now?I hope she is not that impulsive enough to give up Andy though partially I understand how she feels.
I wonder how is Irene…but guess she just have the upper hands anytime.A gal who NEVER has anything wrong in her entire 21 years.
I wonder how is Yin?A fine gal who is so innocent,naïve,straightforward,sweet and cute.Though that poor RQ never gets her love,but I hope she will find someone as good or better.
I wonder how is WS?Must be blissfully in her own world and her new found bf.*sigh*J
-----To be Cont’d 12.58pm

Ok…To cont’…
I guess dear is feeling quite distraughted now.
I have no right to comment on his family but I knows it hurts.A haunting sad past.
Everyone has their weak moments and hopefully there will always been another one at least to pull them up.
All I wanna say is that,dear…We only got one life to live.It is natural to be hooked by some unwanted past but we shall never stay there for long.Remember I said that we cant always go back and make a brand new start but can always start from here and make a brand new beginning.
You cant change what had already happen…dear..why not start making a difference now and in a future?
And that I will be here for you like you always been here for m. =)
Parents and children..
How hard it is to strike a mutual understanding b/w them?Ironically is the fact that the child is part of the parents.
Maybe it is becoz of cultures,mind gap,thinkings,age gap and..undesirable incidents..Well…
But I guess….I really wanna believe that no parent wanna hurt their child right in the start.
I guess this is the fundamental of love.
No…I am not making a specific comment on anyone’s case..Am just stating a general thought. ~.~

Anyway I am now gonna talk about another issue.
My past relationships.Noone really loves talking about the past(unless it is happy),but I just feel like coming clean once more.
Here’s a confession to each and every one of you.Not exactly in order
(although they never get to read it,but that’s the reason I am blogging it down.Ironic!)
Benny:
He started out to be my internet pal.We progressed from chatting on net, to exchanging emails, to conversing over the phone and finally meet after a long long time.
We went out for 2,3 or 4 dates in total.But till I knew he liked me,I dropped the pole and fled.
I am so sorry,Ben.
Though we did keep in contact for a short while after the whole thing.But I guess we never can return to what we were as time drifts us apart.
Junyong:
This is a bullet train fling.He is Zhiwei’s friend.
We met each other while I was meeting Zhiwei for coffee,and he joined us for a short while.
I cant exactly describe the kinda impression I had for him,but it was something like…"you are nice,I like you but I love someone else.I did not like you enough to persue a next step and really…I dun think we are fated to have a next step.." kinda thingy.
Just hope he is doing well now.Saw him at Zhiwei’s friendster.
Dunno if he will realise I am there and add me as well.That is if he still regards me as a friend.
Oh well…doesn’t matter.J
Wilson:
This is another far too nice guy.We only went out once after my cousin’s incident,which freaked me out!
Actually he confessed his feelings even before we meet,which kinda bemused me.
I dun believe in virtual love/feelings.
But he is really nice and never overstep the order.I guess he kinda know that I didn’t see him in that manner so he never persued further.
Last contact him thru sms some months ago when I stopped and didn’t reply him coz I am watching my beloved training. =p
Xianghao:
Now this is one funny guy.One year my junior, and I tot I played the role of sister to him.Y’noe,consoling him,encouraging him to persue that gal and so on.Then we lost contact and regained it some time later.
All things went well till he finally decided to turn around and tell he likes me.
Almost scares me off.
That day when we met,I was so ..i dunno..freaked off that I call my friend,Zhihuang and dragged his hands going off,pretending we have something on.
Well…Sorry. =A mysterious smser:
Well…erm…I dunno who you are,but thanks for thinking I am "pretty" enough to catch ur attention. :P
Surprise you didn’t follow up…it is rare of pple who dare to msg.
Thank you~
An anonymous guy
Well..this one dedicated Gareth Gates..forget the title..song to me.Rem singtel have the promotion which allows you to dedicate songs?It is either you did not leave a msg or really I hung up before the msg can be played.Opps.
Anyway..nice song.You make me fall in love with the song for a short period of time.
Thank you~
Si wei:
Now..this is one big mistake I have ever made!
I dun wanna go back to how we meet,how we somehow ended up together.But I admit it IS my fault for how things became.
I shouldn’t have let things dragged longer and longer and hurt you.
Steven:
Whatever I had just blogged to Wei is exactly what I wanna say to you as well.You are even more nicer than Wei.
But…really…
I never love any one of you.I was in love with someone else then.
I owed two of u the biggest apology.
Ah man:
Another chef.He never said he liked me..but sometimes things can be tell without words.I could be wrong and be glad to be.
I am not sorry as in how sorry I was to Wei and Steven,but…well..you are truly an uncle to me. ;p
I had my fun times with all the chefs then.I feel like I am surrounded by a grp of doting brothers.So never did I expect that things were never that simple.
Anyway..it is all of the past..Just hope all of u are doing well now,esp Ah Heng,my brother. =)
Yes..as of to date,I still rec wei and steven’s smses some months back.
But I never replied..coz I believe what is the end should be ended.Or really it shouldn’t even get started.
Alvin:
Now this is my cousin.Someone I adore as a brother since young.The feeling is strange coz I adore him as a brother and not as a brother at the same time. Guess our age is too close.
Everything went well till that day of violation.Nothing happened but my adoration for him will never be the same again.Or never will be there again.
I just hope he cherish his gf now.

Daren:
Another SNAG,another I called brother.He is so sweet and nice,that I couldn’t imagine that he is single.
We lost contact once but somehow regained.
He is always there when I am down.Though we never met but I think I am really comfortable with the distant.
As I had mentioned,I dun believe in virtual love/feelings.I dunno how 2 persons who never met and spend time with each other can actually developed feelings.Even if there is,I know it aint ..erm..as real as you really spend time with him/her physically.
I never doubt or has the mind of laughing at you coz I know each feeling,no matter what kind,is precious.Esp when you have the courage to confess,coz I dun.
I dunno if he reads this anymore,or read this before coz I did tell him of my blog before.
But really..if you did,I just wanna say that you are still my dear brother.
I think I left someone out…I guess it doesn’t matter.That is a mutual one..just that fate aint enough and I am now glad nothing happen.
…..
So finally to those I loved.
Dunno if I should mentioned names,oh well..I guess I shouldn’t make any effort in detailing.It is very tiring leh.
There are only 2 persons.
Just wanna say…well..I wished I have the courage to say.
I had been through hell for u 2,esp the latter.
But those memories you gave were the sweetest.
I guess it’s fate.
You will always chop a special place somewhere in my memories. =}
And that you will always be someone I will be praying for in my heart.
For health,for safety,for happiness.
And so..those were the past…And to my present.
He is someone who surpass any of the guys I had mentioned.Someone very ordinary yet I find myself praising him to sky high or jump to his defenses if anyone were to ask about him.
Someone who makes me angry and yet I never remember what about the incident when we reconciled.
Someone that I keep mentioning over and over till you are sick of hearing/reading.
Someone whom is more than words.
You know who you are.
Love you lots.